this is the puppy i fell in love with yesterday. and one day he will be mine, oh yes, he will be mine. me and my pommy are going to be the cutest together. as soon as i figure out the how to clean up poop without gagging part. but where there is a will there is a way and i will prove the people who think i can't handle a pet wrong. *cough*jenny*cough*. we all learn at some point in our lives and just cause i didn't grow up with pets doesn't mean i can't learn. 26 is a bit too young to give up on having a pet/puppy. call me cliche but you're never too old to learn if you are willing.
people have kids all the time that have no idea what they are doing and end up doing a fine job. i'm sure many parents were scared shitless of how to raise a kid and not knowing what to do, but you learn as you go along. and there is never a 'right time to have kids' but if you want it bad enough you make it happen. that is how i feel about my puppy. i want it bad enough that it will happen. maybe not this week or month but it will happen. and am i scared and clueless? hells yeah. but i don't think the puppy will not discriminate about the learning experience of it. i equate the feelings of wanting my puppy more than anything and wanting it for a long time, to what a maternal instinct must feel like. never had one, so don't know but i don't have a boyfriend or husband to worry about, and with no need to procreate, i think the puppy would be a great companion/responsibility.
i will probably be in over my head, want to kill it if it chews on shoes, be disgusted when it barfs or pees or something and be annoyed when i have to go somewhere and need to find out 'what to do with the dog' or am looking for a place to live and cannot convince anyone that "it really is trained and doesn't bark". but for the love it will bring, it's more than worth it. i really cannot explain it any better than that. i know i am diving into the pet deep end without a clue and it could very well end up being a bad idea. but it's my choice and my love and if a puppy will bring me as much happiness as i believe then it is worth it. end of discussion.