I'm not happy, or at least not content. This isn't news. And I am a big believer that if you're not happy you need to choose you own happiness. What this happiness entails, well that's a bigger picture. So here's a few steps to work on. Not that anyone cares but I find that if I write things down it pushes me to do them more than if I don't.
-Finding a new job. I've always thought all professional jobs will push you to the extremes. That's why they're professional jobs as they challenge you. I've come to terms this week that my job goes beyond those means. A good paycheque is not worth working while you're sick with a fever of almost 103 degrees and getting no thanks for it and more work piled on top. A 50 hr work week is turning into a thankless 60 hr work week at the sake of my health and mental well being. No job is worth it. So as of this week I'm looking for a new job. It's not turning in the towel so much but knowing my limits.
-Going on a road trip. Road trips=happy.
-Seeing my parents. Either they are going to come here soon or I am going to go and visit them. I miss them.
-Surrounding myself with people that are good for me. People that I feel I can rely on. If you can't rely on your friends, then they're simply acquantences.
-Not being sick. Working on that one myself with the courtesy of my good friends soup and tea. We meet again, old friends.
-This is where I'd like to say a boyfriend. But that's unrealistic. It's hard to see friends when working a million hrs a week muchless meet new guys. And where would I meet such guys? Most of my friends don't have any 'male suitors' to fit the bill, there's no workplace dating, and I'm often too tired to do anything other than go to the Central for social activity and as explained before everyone at the Central knows everyone. Plus, the obvious part is you can't force dating. It's almost always random. So you busy yourself in the meantime pretending not to be lonely.
-I want to travel. So in the next year I am going to take a trip to a place I have never been.
Of course this is more or less the emo ramblings of someone who's been cooped up inside, sick all weekend downloading sad music so don't mind me. Some sunshine and spring flowers may help too.