Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Who Can Predict the Future, Really

All around the blogosphere like champagne corks bursting have been trepid and hopeful resolutions for 2009. Posts of self improvement and words of achievements to come glitter the internet and everyone breathes a sigh of relief that they get a whole New Year to start over fresh.

Unfortunately, I’m not one of those people as I really don’t know where I stand going into the New Year. Don’t get me wrong, I’m self aware by all means and have things I’d like to work towards if you look towards the post below. It’s just I don’t really know what comes next.*

I’d like to resolve that this will be the year that I fall in love, or find a relationship that sticks but can’t predict that anymore than I can predict the weather or the future. It’s a sad thing to realize that you are not where you thought you would be at this age, and officially not where you want to be. It’s a fine line between starting to understand those woman that reek of desperation, but also of making the best of the situation at hand. I enjoy living alone and I enjoy flirting with different men, guilt free and enjoy the freedom singleness gives.

I’d like to resolve to find my place on the social scene but I’m not quite there yet either. I like going out every once in a blue moon (and yes, I still train wreck from time to time) but find my days of going to the bars and going out all night long are winding down. I’ve been there and done it many, many time. And I don’t know where to go from here. A lot of my friends are taken and spend quality time with their significant other (understandably) and some of the ones that aren’t like to go out partying. Pretty much I spend a lot of down time reading and chilling at Casa De Meghan. Which will be great except for when some guy comes along and asks what I do for fun and I confess, “I cook microwave burritos and dance around in my underwear to you tube videos of old Michael Jackson videos when not watching Foodtv and The City or playing with my cat.”

I’m not going to say too much about the job for obvious reasons (cough*dooce*cough) but would like to say that I resolve and hope to be appreciated in my job in 2009 but can’t be certain of that either. And in a time where the economic problems are slowly drifting into Canada I should be grateful that I have a job in the first place.

Or maybe I should just resolve to stop being so self pitying and to stop feeling sorry for myself and to stop using my blog as a socially awkward therapists couch and get back to posting about things that matter. Like bringing hammer pants back, MC style.

* and I don't bother feigning like I am going to go to the gym, eat healthier or be nice to everyone in the New Year cause that's so not me.

19 comments:

Lad Litter said...

Look, it's tough and I sympathize completely, particularly about the relationship issue. I can't offer much in the way of suggestions beyond the lame platitude act natural.

It's only a cliche because there is that kernel of truth in it that makes it so. Act as if you don't give two hoots about whether you're hooked up or not, but make it clear you're still in the market. I-don't-really-care can be an attractor.

Listen to me, the artist formerly known as Wallflower Central, and before that Oh-God-He's-Coming-Over handing out advice.

Mike said...

First off, the weather. It's going to get warmer. Then it's going to get really, really cold. You're welcome.

Second, dancing around in your underwear is a hobby that will probably turn most guys on.

You're welcome again.

It's Me! said...

I think the critical issue with most resolutions is the "I will stop" part. Positive thinking and positive direction is far more effective than making a statement that already berates yourself. Besides, If I recall in SATC, Charlotte professed that she would get married that year...and that worked out just fine...look, that's not the point...just be positive and proactive. I have faith in you. Plus there's gonna be a guy at my wedding that you might like. :)

AND...I agree with the dancing in the livingroom in your underwear. You might also try Dave Matthews every now and again for a switch up. ...not sure why, he just gets my undies-clad-booty shaking.

Slyde said...

im with you on the going out all night thing. i did it so much from 19 to 30 that i could care less if i ever did it again.

Now when i look at the clock and its like 10pm, i shudder when i think, "damn, this would be about the time i was getting into the shower to go out!"....

Roland Hulme said...

What was the line from the Octopussy James Bond theme? "When you don't look, you find..."

It'll happen when you least expect it.

Bruce said...

Hold on, you mean blogs aren't supposed to be theraputic outlet for the mentally dissenfrancished and depressed???....damn, my theapist lied to me.

Anonymous said...

I don't think anyone really gets much from going out to singles places all the time. Bars can be ok, but clubs especially make me want to claw my eyes out. Only the joy of killing brain cells and the remote possibility of a handjob makes them even remotely appealing to me, and these days I'm taking every effort to make my remaining brain cells last long enough that I can accomplish something some day.

I sleep in every day til about noon, workout, then sit at the computer in my underwear working and screwing around. Really, I think that's what everyone secretly aspires to achieve one day.

I do know what you mean about not being able to hold a conversation with people so well in the 3d world when they're all talking about their awesome trip to mt whistler and their 79 day rafting trip, but I say fuck those people. Any time I do go on some kind of xtreme trip of some kind it usually seems kinda boring.

Princess Pointful said...

Honestly, I just don't think anyone is where they thought they would be at this age. We have such high hopes as bright eyed 18-year olds, don't we?

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Meghan said...

Lad Litter-thanks, it's cliche but true.

Mike- Thank you. :P

Jess- set a date yet?

Slyde- wanna come over this Friday for Scrabble and tea?

Roland- Thanks :)

Bruce- at least that's what my therapist said.

Anonymous- thanks...I think?

Princess Pointful- yeah, sadly pipe dreams to collect dust.

Erin- thanks doll. You just officially made my day :)

Cat said...

Sigh... this blog seems like my life :) Maybe we will get it right some day... or maybe not! Now what do you do when you want a baby and there is no daddy... that is my new years resolution....

Paula said...

If in doubt, always go for the hammer pants resolution!

And i TOTALLY know how you feel re: the whole relationship thing.

It's Me! said...

No date yet...but we've got it narrowed down. August 21-24. Depends on availability. Hopefully we'll have it sorted out in the next week.

Deutlich said...

I learned a long time ago that resolutions do nothing for me. Instead, I just work harder at working hard. Heh.

TaraMetBlog said...

At the begining of each year I like to call it something, The Year of...men, travel, the real thing, etc. And for me The Year of Men was in fact full of men and me being open to going on dates, which prompted me to call the next year The Year of the Real Thing and that's when I met Raphael. So it works! Last year was The Year of Change, this year is The Year of Success, hopefully it lives up to the name ;)

yes, weather and love are both indeed unpredictable but when you write "I’d like to resolve that this will be the year that I fall in love, or find a relationship that sticks." I belive it could happen!

ash said...
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ash said...

"It’s a sad thing to realize that you are not where you thought you would be at this age, and officially not where you want to be."

How true. I love reading your blogs, i wish i could sit down and write as eloquently as you:)

Sometimes Saintly Nick said...

May 2009 bring you blessings beyond your hopes and dreams!

Meghan said...

Cat- other options? Good luck!

Paula- lets bring back hammer pants.

Jess- I'm there!

Deutlich- good call

Tara- good idea, the year of travel sounds good

Ash- thanks, that means a lot.

Nick -to you as well!