All around the blogosphere like champagne corks bursting have been trepid and hopeful resolutions for 2009. Posts of self improvement and words of achievements to come glitter the internet and everyone breathes a sigh of relief that they get a whole New Year to start over fresh.
Unfortunately, I’m not one of those people as I really don’t know where I stand going into the New Year. Don’t get me wrong, I’m self aware by all means and have things I’d like to work towards if you look towards the post below. It’s just I don’t really know what comes next.*
I’d like to resolve that this will be the year that I fall in love, or find a relationship that sticks but can’t predict that anymore than I can predict the weather or the future. It’s a sad thing to realize that you are not where you thought you would be at this age, and officially not where you want to be. It’s a fine line between starting to understand those woman that reek of desperation, but also of making the best of the situation at hand. I enjoy living alone and I enjoy flirting with different men, guilt free and enjoy the freedom singleness gives.
I’d like to resolve to find my place on the social scene but I’m not quite there yet either. I like going out every once in a blue moon (and yes, I still train wreck from time to time) but find my days of going to the bars and going out all night long are winding down. I’ve been there and done it many, many time. And I don’t know where to go from here. A lot of my friends are taken and spend quality time with their significant other (understandably) and some of the ones that aren’t like to go out partying. Pretty much I spend a lot of down time reading and chilling at Casa De Meghan. Which will be great except for when some guy comes along and asks what I do for fun and I confess, “I cook microwave burritos and dance around in my underwear to you tube videos of old Michael Jackson videos when not watching Foodtv and The City or playing with my cat.”
I’m not going to say too much about the job for obvious reasons (cough*dooce*cough) but would like to say that I resolve and hope to be appreciated in my job in 2009 but can’t be certain of that either. And in a time where the economic problems are slowly drifting into Canada I should be grateful that I have a job in the first place.
Or maybe I should just resolve to stop being so self pitying and to stop feeling sorry for myself and to stop using my blog as a socially awkward therapists couch and get back to posting about things that matter. Like bringing hammer pants back, MC style.
* and I don't bother feigning like I am going to go to the gym, eat healthier or be nice to everyone in the New Year cause that's so not me.